Jessica (gemma_thompson) wrote in hogwarts_halls,
Jessica
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Lying in her bed

*Gemma ignores Mei's subliminal hints about going to bed.*

She'll live... I'm too tired to fall asleep right now. I know if I do go to sleep, I'll only dream of what he could have been doing with that woman... veela... thing... the whole week.

*she breaks out into a cold sweat and grabs her journal*

</i>I havn't seen him since break ended, coward... I... I must get my feelings out, however, otherwise I'll be incredibly tense and more unpredictable and a wreck even more than I am now...</i>

*she begins to write:*


Where do we go from here?
This isn't where we intended to be...
We had it all, you believed in me
I believed in you...

Certainties disappear
what do we do for our dream to survive?
how do we keep all our passions alive
as we used to do?

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
things that I'm longing to say...
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
frightened you'll slip away...

you must love me...
you must love me...

Why aren't you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
give me a chance and I'll let you see how
nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
things that I'm longing to say...
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
frightened you'll slip away...

you must love me...
you must love me...
You must love me...


*She puts her quill away and blots the ink, tears streaming down her face*

God help me to have strength if I meet up with Velkan...

*She rashly gets up and throws all of her posessions in her tattered trunk... then grabs another piece of parchment to owl Velkan. hurriedly she scribbles:*

I don't expect my love affairs to last for long
never fool myself that my dreams will come true
being used to travel, I anticipate it...
but all the same, I hate it, wouldn't you?

so what happens now?
(another suitcase in another hall)
So what happens now?
(take your picture off another wall)
Where am I going to?
(You'll get by, you always have before)
Where am i going to?

Time and time again I've said that I don't care
That I'm immune to gloom, that I'm hard through and through
but every time it matters all my words desert me
so anyone can hurt me, and they do

so what happnes now?
(another suitcase in another hall)
So what happens now?
(take your picture off another wall)
Where am I going to?
(You'll get by, you always have before)
Where am i going to?

Call in three months time and I'll be fine, i know
well maybe not that fine
but I'll survive but I'll survive anyhow
I won't recall the names and places of each sad occasion
but that's no consolation here and now

so what happens now?
(another suitcase in another hall)
So what happens now?
(take your picture off another wall)
Where am I going to?
(You'll get by, you always have before)
Where am i going to?

Don't ask anymore...



I understand if you have found someone more beautiful than me... so at the end of this quarter I'll leave to give you space...


Gemma


((I'm thinking that she left all of her rational...ness... with Sirius... or something, cause she's going off the deep end...))
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incase no one has heard "ugly" before... here are the lyrics... its actually a sad song, I think...

Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don’t know
Money it’s no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?

[Chorus]
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?

Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?

[Chorus]

I don’t care, you don’t care
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, like me

[Chorus]

Are you Ugly? [X3]
((Oh it's all co CUTE . . . lol . . . Mei has nothing much to say here . . . except . . . fish . . . ))
((You think this is CUTE?! man... i'm trying to create some sad drama here... and you think it's cute... *cloud of anger*... man... I need to work on this, then...)) ^_^